My wife of 45 years at the time she was diagnosed with cancer.
She had already received the dreaded phone call in the last week of January with not so good news. After a few doctor exams and all the lab work, the CT scans from earlier that month pretty much confirmed what we didn’t want to hear. Cancer. Now it had to be official I suppose, and a biopsy was scheduled to determine which treatment would be used to slow this thing down. There was no cure regardless. It was at a much too advanced stage to do surgery. The only thing we could do now, was to slow it down so it didn’t grow as fast until the treatment stopped working. This started our life on a completely different path. A path of hope, staying positive, and secret grief at times for me. I knew what the stats showed. I had done my research. I was so sad for my wife and hated this. Any dreams we had just turned to vapor. The plans we had did the same. Dust. This was when I started to grieve for my wife knowing I was gonna lose her. I wanted so much for another option. We diligently searched for that, but only hit brick walls. Right after Mary received the phone call that it was cancer, she was quoted as saying “she wasn’t gonna let this steal her joy.” She did not let this steal her joy for the whole 18 month journey until the day she died….
This was where I started. This was what lead up to my grief. And this is where I found some comfort and therapy. Right here on this key board, writing about it. This is where I have shared my thoughts and the ways I have dealt with my grief. I’m still on my journey and always will be till it subsides to a much lesser degree. I will share all I have written so far and will continue to write. I’ll include writings of a positive and Christian nature. If it had not been for God at my side, my grief would have been so much harder and my healing would be taking so much longer and the pain would simply linger further. I hope to be an encourager to those who are new to grief and to those who are grieving. Many are the ones who still hold their loved ones in their hearts…as they will always. I pray that all my post will be an encouragement to anyone who carries a burden of any kind and that it allows me to broadcast hope into your life. Thank you.
