Business as usual..

When I lost my wife, I lost part of me in many ways.

When I lost Mary, it’s just like when anyone else experiences a loss. You grieve what you had, and with 100 percent accuracy, you know that they will never return. I lost my lover. I lost the one I could have breakfast with in the morning or night. I miss the one I could watch Hallmark movies with…because. I lost the one I sat in the swing with, went to church with, to the beach with, in the rain with, in pictures with. I lost parts of me.

There is much about our business that I had never put much thought into when I first lost her, except for the fact that I was replacing her at the desk, and was attending to all the data entries of our business. That was a lot of work and I’ve posted about it before. She did a lot, and now I’m filling her shoes. That wasn’t, and isn’t easy to do. She was special in so many ways and missed in so many more.

Today I’ve discovered that I also miss my business partner. The one I collaborated with on all and any of our new items for the store. The one that I could go to to get an honest opinion about an items color or modification. I’m missing my partner who would have a great way of responding to a customer’s need if I was in shop and couldn’t respond right away. The one I could text from the shop letting her know we were low on a certain stocked item, and she would get it ordered. My business partner and co-owner.

Today, I’m just before making a small investment in what was once ours, but is now my business. I miss my partner and getting her feedback on this. We had always done engraving in our business, but this will be a different style in addition to what we have always done. We would have explored all the possibilities together of what this venture could do. Even so, we had discussed it before. We would be excited about it as well, and cautiously moving ahead. At one time, we discussed combining her sewing and embroidery talents with my woodworking before she got sick. However, now, I’m taking a new and different idea and venture without her. I just hate the fact that I can’t share this with her, but I’m sure she would be excited. So, I’m trusting my God for guidance and wisdom as I move forward.

When you move into this new year, please take nothing for granted. Love the one you’re with deeply. When you lose someone, you lose more than what you may imagine. You lose a part of you. Mary had gifted me a Bible on our anniversary in 1995. She had inscripted, “engraved” on the cover, “Robert A. King, Matthew 19:6”. We were joined as one and she will forever be engraved in my heart. We did so much together…but not today. So never think that each day is business as usual. Watch how you live and always love others. And remember, there is always HOPE. Have a Happy New Year…..