For more than a year I have had to experience that terrible emotion called grief. In the early months of it, when she first got sick, I kept it hidden from Mary because we stayed positive. I hoping that some lesser degrees of grief will always be near me, and not control me, because hopefully, joy will also be near me. It’s been a 20 month total journey that started in February, 2022. It was a 17 month journey of cancer for Mary, before she died peacefully this July, 2023 in our home surrounded by her family.
God answers prayer. He is faithful and his word is truth. I now have stepped out of the boat and did not sink. Because, I’ve kept my eyes on Jesus and he’s held me securely and brought me comfort and safety, and he’s been my strength. I’m not naive, there may be a bump in the road, but I also know the storm clouds have passed, and again, no doubt there may be showers at times, but I am so glad that the Lord has granted me this comfort. I’m consistent in prayer, without having to be so full of sorrow as I was. I’m seeing the clearing as I exit this forest. I’m still attending GriefShare meetings to have community with others that share in this same journey. A very good friend has listened to me a lot in all this. Thanks brother! Katie has been awesome and is an Angel sent. And a few others…you know who you are
I am healing very well. I’m getting my house in order and getting to know this new normal life. I’m at peace, and beginning to laugh and have a for real smile once again. There is no doubt that this dark valley changed me. Thanks to everyone who has put up with my therapy writings here on Facebook, (and now my blog post), and brought me comfort during it all. You all are great!
Broadcasting Hope 